30days

19th January 2006

30 last days before im 27

hy.been a while since ive written any of my thinking.
been buzy, lazy, horny not to mention lonely, bit greedy n of course needy.

tangled up in cunfusion, desperate to keep myself sane, struggling to find that One that loves me back...mmmm....the usual suspect.

maybe im not that confused anymore. ive had my crushes.. i left them that way. dunt need to nag on the questions. all i need is just to go away..

maybe keeping sane is not that hard. but nothing beats alittle insanity in us huh.. that one moment u laughed a little extra...or acted a little out of the norm..hey that is normal..
ive had my moments...ive had my time..i ve had those times i wish it hadnt come.
but it did. n so it passed. i lived, am still breathing.like i said. its not that hard.

the one that loves me back.oh how i longed to b wit u. Eday wit u. every second. nothing else matters in this world when it's about u yg..nothing. never has anyone made me feel so beautiful or worth something like u do..u love me even when im ugly, dizzy, naughty, crazy, cranky, giddy, bitchy....
ive actually found that one that loves me back. i really have..
in an instance i would've said yes to ure question yg.
in an instance i would've said yes.
i keep forgetting. again and again...i just keep on forgetting
not all great loveStrories ends with an "ever after"
not all.

30 days and counting...then iLL be 3 years to 30 years old....ahhh the number 3...

i'm a mess

6th January 2006.

yikes!2006
hehe..eppy new year.patutnya id b writing all the ups and down, shits n glory dat has happend in 2005 before it ended. hell i even started drafting it.but im a mess.end of 2005, im a mess.

is bein in love all about finding the right person at the right time?is finding true love all about bein wit someOne that fits all norm of bein in a relationship?..lateLy ive been askin myself that.so one meets a guy, finds things in common to talk about, both single then the next best thing, form a relationship and thus "In L to tha O to tha V to tha E". but what hapends when uve found love but not from the right person n worst the wrong time?.will denying whats true just because its no ordinary love be the solution?.is it written anywhere that all true love ends "eppyLy ever after"?i even almost lost it all just because all i could think of is doing whats best for me.but honestly, denying it?
im a mess.

work.all i could think of is work. i eat, sleep, BS even gossip about work.last year i was crowned "least who took leave and nil MC" .wow! even i couldnt take that status for real. but yep, im in the running to b crowned "workaholic who has nothing else but work work work". if work was a man, id probably marry him..hell mayb i will.
im a mess.

my heart. most times is secured. other times is lifeLess. it melts easily. more of when im high wit some chocs.isnt there anything true out there for this heart to feed?isnt there anything real n sane enough to tell this heart of mine to beat normally. but then again, it never has. it keeps skipping a beat. n in some cases, just stop.
im a mess

dem. im a mess.

eppy new year!

KareeCurry